I have a lot to say about myself, So this isn't going to be short. I don't have blonde hair or blue eyes, and I don't belong in a magazine. I'm not a pretty girl and I'm out of shape. I'm not cool or original. I'm not trendy or admirable. I'm very skinny but I do not have an eating disorder. I'm extremely dependent on other people. I'm selfish and I complain a lot. I'm negative and emotionally unstable. I'm cocky when I'm drunk, And occasionally when I'm sober. I'm usually pretty self confident. I'll be nice to you even if you hate me. I get very self concious around people if I know they don't like me. I trust people too much and too quickly. I always let people down, or get let down. I hate liars, and overly sarcastic people. I hate people who think they know everything. Music is the only thing keeping me alive. I don't have as many friends as you think. I hang out with my brother and his girlfriend Because I don't have friends to make plans with. I don't hide behind a smile. I won't pretend I'm alright if I'm not. If I want to know something, I'll ask. I don't beat around the bush. I'm very open and if I like you, you'll know. I'm afraid of being hurt or used. I hate the way I am when I'm alone. I'm overdramatic and I overreact a lot. I'm smart but I don't apply myself. I throw myself at boys and try way too hard to get them to like me. I open up to them and allow myself to get hurt. I'm deathly afraid of jet engines. Not the jet, just the engine. If I fly, I will not sit where I can see them. If I do, I start to cry like a baby. I don't like tall buildings or spiders. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not. I won't change for anyone. I don't have the balls to stick up for myself when someone older than me gives me shit, So I just take it and try to forget about it. I'm not really good at anything. I have quit everything I tried to do. I get frustrated very quickly and just give up. I play the drums but I haven't been practicing lately. Waterskiing is my passion and I'd do it everyday if I could. I hate winter and cold weather. I love summer more than anything in the world. I go to a camp in Vermont every year Because everyone there is cooler than you'll ever be. I hope to get my waterskiing vangaurd this summer. Although most of you don't know what it is. I come home just to go to Warped Tour, then go back. I hate bad grammar and I'm extremely impatient. I hate crowds and waiting in line at concerts. I hate standing for long periods of time. I type like a 10 year old and say things like: LMFAO omfgzikjhfds jfkdhas LOLOL STFU kthx SWA FOT BISH @..!..!$1231111!1ONESHIFTONEONE. I add "schv" to the beginning of words, And "-ski" to the end of them. Like my best friend, schveliza the jedi-ski. I have the attention span of a goldfish. I have really bad ADHD and I have to take adderall which is part of the reason why I'm so skinny. I hate being home on the weekends. But somehow, it always ends up that way. I like to take pictures of myself, And I'm a myspace whore. I love emo and anything acoustic. I listen to "Thriller" by Michael Jackson at least once a day. I live off of Mountain Dew and Pad Thai. My name is Jill, and I'm fifteen. I look older but act younger. I like people who can make me smile.